my only regret for christmas this year

is not wishing you a merry christmas and not having the chance to celebrate it with you.

-alliwantforchristmasisyou.

like every procrastinating teenager,this post regarding to the old folk's home was to be put up eons ago (last monday,to be exact) and has been postponed long enough.

I am terribly upset about how television portrays the old folk's home to be.Bryan wong came over to the old folk's home I was helping at last week,and the workers decorated the old folks' home with streamers.Prior to that,there were only christmas trees (rather sparsely decorated) and the workers were not really enthusiastic about helping the elderly.Huixin even told me that the workers were chatting among themselves and some even scolded the elderly.One of them even gave Huixin money and made her buy newspaper at the cheers shop downstairs for her,and demanded the receipt.Although I helped at the old folks' home for a few days only,I could tell that most of them were very much sound.Some of them did have habits of wanting attention so the workers told us to ignore them,but sometimes some of them really needed help,like getting a drink or going to the toilet etc etc,then in the corner you see the workers jabbering away.yakkity yak.

then the host of the show lol he just go there host show then in the meantime when the cameras were being set up he just sit on the couch and talk talk talk if not along the corridor there stone.

Sigh compassion.so much of it needed in the world.So little left of it.

yesterday at 2am.

there was the funniest conversation between
likai and i
jh and i
zy and i

while likai jh and zy had their own mass convo,they were each talking to me in their separate windows.

zy:"I DON'T **** THAT MUCH"

HAHAH.

likai was having a lot of funny censoring fun yesterday.
sigh the dota guys are sooooo much fun no one'll understand how boring vj is going to be w/ them now.

I THINK LIKAI IS RIGHT NO ONE COMES TO MY BLOG.

GOODBYE WORLD.

curlyhair.
today was a bad day.

/edit.

suddenly guys from the past are appearing.
talked to sam today and meeting ben and the rest next mon(?)well this is a surprise.

/editagain.

dont feel like talking much just brb-ed to stone.

I never told you this
I probably never will have the chance to
but you were the only one who could make me laugh like that
thank you for the calls and texts and the short happy moments we shared

now that all is over.
I've got to be steadfast in love.
I'm hanging in there.
I hope you will too.

I wish there was never a fullstop,then we would never end.

okay those were honest feelings,but imo I got to admit that was a good pick up line.

recently don't know why i feel like shutting myself up from the world,but i feel much better after talking to likai,most of the time anyway.

yay you know those crappy people who walk about asking you to go for job interviews for free lance yesyesyes another company approached me (though they pretty much approach everyone they see on the streets) but mum doesn't allow me to go cos she says they may deal in drug trafficking.UHHUH.quite sad recently holidays they aggressively scouting for people and wasting namecards (PAPER!!) save the envt people okaibye.


36001 times. Fuck. "1st and 2nd place in several Magic: the Gathering tournaments" says:
WTF SIA
36001 times. Fuck. "1st and 2nd place in several Magic: the Gathering tournaments" says:
NOT BAD U
36001 times. Fuck. "1st and 2nd place in several Magic: the Gathering tournaments" says:
ARE QUITE MAN
lynette. says:
...
36001 times. Fuck. "1st and 2nd place in several Magic: the Gathering tournaments" says:
+1 EXP

prior to this +1 EXP llk gave me +1 for doing cip.

which means today he has +2 exp for me.LLK IS SO DAMN HOOKED ONTO GAMES LAH.
oh and more exp now.

hahah okai lah talking to llk really cheers me up.i'm glad i've got a friend like that now,especially when yuhsuan nikky and chaiyuxiang are overseas.):

i still can't believe we're together?seems so unreal.so un-everlasting.

just went to my old livejournal.

hengfai i suddenly miss you and the times we talked through the night (or morning,for your case.)there was always someone to complain and whine to,and get teased for it.

in a horrible mood now.i know it's not his fault;now they all know about us.and it isn't the right time.sucks.and he wasn't even at the dinner today,and it was damn awkward when his name was called out for the gift and no one was going to collect for him.and there were people looking at me,as if expecting me to offer to pass the gift to him.i guess within close friends it's okai to let them know,but so many people?uncalled for,really.

suddenly i'm wondering where this relationship went wrong.in other words,second thoughts.not that i don't love him anymore,just that sometimes,it feels wrong to be together.we couldn't even spend our first month together,and i'm feeling like shit.must be hormones and yes i'm blaming myself for this because i get frizzled up over the smallest issues and i'll probably get dumped sooner or later because i'm oversensitive and repetitive.there aren't any 'buts'in this paragraph because i know i'm being oversensitive about this issue and there's no one else to blame.our relationship defies human laws.how can the smart date the stupid,the nice date the evil,the adorable date the ugly,the rational date the oversensitive bitch i am?i guess i'll never understand why we got together.he doesn't have a reason to like me,he has no reason to like me,so why are we even together?i was never first on his list and i don't doubt his love (i think);i just need to know why.Of all people,why me?

so many questions left unanswered.

I think daphne and jacky are unhappy that I watched quarantine already,but now then they ask me,how would I know!They movie was out eons ago lah!



and yes llk you are a good bro *peace sign*


Path of the light... Das Leben kann ja so schön sein. Timotei! Das WTF?! I GIVE YOU PAIN PILLS I GO AND DIE says:
>_>
Path of the light... Das Leben kann ja so schön sein. Timotei! Das WTF?! I GIVE YOU PAIN PILLS I GO AND DIE says:
so why are u sad?
Path of the light... Das Leben kann ja so schön sein. Timotei! Das WTF?! I GIVE YOU PAIN PILLS I GO AND DIE says:
menstrual cramp ah lol
Path of the light... Das Leben kann ja so schön sein. Timotei! Das WTF?! I GIVE YOU PAIN PILLS I GO AND DIE says:
i had stomach pain again this afternoon and i felt sad too

I HAVE DECIDED TO FALL IN LOVE WITH A UNIVERSITY PROFESSOR.

I can't go for cip and training tmr!:( acks.

and my job interview tooooo):My dream as a model is dashed.WELL it was dashed long ago because I'm fat and ugly and stupid and a million other flaws I have to be a fullstop to this dream BUT IT HAS OFFICIALLY BEEN DASHED.):Unless I get called up again?:D:D

Oh well.
blame it on the chilly winds of japan,and my weak health.Okay I have to admit I ate a bar of kitkat white chunky yesterday,which obviously din help lah.

yesyes.JAPAN HAS SERIOUS SERIOUS PROBLEMS WITH MONEY everything is damn expensive!It's inflationextortion!I bought really really little things.

and I bet you baby forgot about our happy1month today.
and baby I just remembered the 100 bucks cargo pants whatever thing thingy you owe me.
and I haven't bought your fifa09 game.I'm sorry.
Faster come back NOT that I MISS YOU but I got stuff for your little brother:D:D
Super annoyed lah you confirm forgot about our happy1month together,which is not very happy now since I'm celebrating it alone at home with vectors and a bad flu sorethroat cough and fever.I'll go bury my face in babykins.

back from japan,and SICK.
see my inflamed tonsils? *points*
DAMN.
and I got scolded by pops today,ulti sianz suck day.

anyway tmr is a realllllllllly special day (and it's just my luck I'm spending it alone)

BUT AN EARLY, HAPPY 1 MONTH TGT WITH YOU MAN.

yes yes.I love you.
*nodds until head drops off*

IdoIdoIdoIdoIdo.

ack hongyee says I haven't posted in a long time.IT IS VERY TRUE.

went for yvip and woah liew yuqi looks a lot like ben,and ben's chinese name is lu yiqi,which is almost identical to yuqi's!and yuqi's really really sweet I had to leave the camp halfway to go for holiday and he wrote me a letter.:D

I was rather close to Huixin in ur group (our group only had 4 people?me yuqi huixin and joanne) and Joanne was constantly elsewhere w her friends if not w bridgette from the next group so the 3 of us and PJ our faci were really really close hahah.We're going to have an outing when I return.They were really awesome on the last night there Yuqi was saying this was our last supper together and I was all awww.It was after all only the 3rd day we actually got to know each other and all,so we bonded really quick!

Saw loads of prom photos,including CHEN:D hahah can't wait to show likai when I come back,but he'll probably say he saw them eons ago already blahblah.

I saw this really cool hwach guy at camp called alvin!OMG hahah he's kinda hot leh:DThe facis and my group members were laughing when I was trying to describe him as godmode.Just for laughs I swear,but hor,he's really really awesome lah.

The best part was when I went to shower on the second night,I forgot to bring my shirt to the showers.HOW DUMB CAN I GET.Blehhh,and I had to rewear the dirty shirt and run back to the bunk.I just went to the next door bunk (container classroom to be specific) to change into a new clean tee,and the tee I was wearing for the day was when we were playing station games in the field.ACK.Wet and black paint on it I felt damn gross even after changing out into my new tee EWWW):Can't imagine yuqi and gang going to NS next time and suffering the same (or worse fate) all over again.

Called baby everynight?He was all blah on the first night cos he just had prom so I guess he wasn't really interested in talking to me then I cried myself to sleep blehhh I really miss baby.Thank god huixin lent me her phone and baby called back for free incoming.Second night I felt much better hahah I was quite high on the second day that's why.Got to know darren and chernyi better so we had quite a bit of laughs.

Fun part of camp was trying to wake huixin up cos she was sleeping all the time,and when she woke up she was hungry,if not she would fall back asleep again.The food sucked but having friends made it all better.The canteen where we ate was flooded with cockroaches and their innards (white stuff) were strewn all over the floor.YUCKADOO.And there was one that was alive and near me.PJ was trying to catch it and pretended to throw it at me.Bleh.

We took photos with the school dental van!:DOH YES the school sucked.TINY and horrible facilities lah how can it even be called a school.It's smaller than my pri school.The library was just a tiny room:/Not even 1/5 the size of nanyang library please=.= (and ny lib has 3 FLOORS,okai other schools like hwach have much much larger libs but just comparing,the school facilities pretty much sucked.)The canteen had only 7 stalls, 3 muslim food 2 chinese food and 2 drink stalls at the ends.7 stalls selling almost all the same food!?how creative.=.=We had catered food lah thank god,but the catered food as mentioned previously,pretty much,SUCKED as well.And we paid 70 bucks for the camp.

Singing the songs were really good!:D I love singing the yv song and learning the sign language.Now I'm going to try sign language to show baby something hahah.

I miss baby he came over to return me stuff and 5 minutes later I reached home.MUMMY LAH she was at the pet shop for damn long,cos we found out cloud had an infection.POOR CLOUD he better GET WELL SOON and we found out his flaking problem was cos the shampoo was unsuitable for him (and mummy was telling us to bathe him more hahah) I hope Cloud's better when we get back home I think he's quite miserable staying at the pet shop alone.

Can't wait to see baby.He must be enjoying himself now;he says he'll call me during his trip once and I hope he'll call on the 15th cos it'll be our one monthsary!:DI'm rather upset we can't spend our first month together *sigh* Oh well I already decided on a gift for him.I hope he likes it.I hope I hope I hope.


flying off soon.prepared my psp and math hw.cya.