rahh

baby says he's not angry anymore?idk.i feel rly bad. oh yeah i need to buy the pink cow can to put his bdae gift in, the orange one is oos.if rly cannot i'll write to gv to ask for a container liao:/

today went to swensons w nikky for dinner?the waiter who hit on me last week was there and he recognized me hahah.then he was asking me how am i and stuff.hahs.

mm i saw swensons selling ice cream cakes and i rly wna buy one for baby?i asked him and he said he loves ice cream cake.but it's damn exp, 72 bucks for a cake:/i think i'd save up and ask them deliver to his house cos his birthday is between prelims and As.I rly want his birthday to be special.giving him a surprise bdae cake delivered to his doorstep,and a personal birthday gift in the cow container.

i highly disapprove of him being called cow.he's so uncowlike.he's a childish immature easily jealous kid who always moans about wanting a new phone and why doesn't he get his way and why his lil bro always annoys him and how much he loves bowling, soccer and pool and how dumb and stupid he is when he takes h3 and aces physics and why doesn't he have his own psp and why his lil bro everytime eat the cookie crumbs all over the floor and how he likes watching friends on starworld and the hot gymnasts from the olympiks and doesn't like girls who wear revealing clothes and how he'd drown in the pool cos he can't swim?

he is rly rly cute.

hahah i notice everytime when i like someone then their birthday is within our happiness period, then when its over,vday or my bdae isn't even close,in the end i celebrate vday myself and my bdae with love and wellwishes from friends and family.


gng to watch movie w nikky on wed.
and gng to study w yhlove on mon.havent seen her for rly long,miss her loads.

llk told me crap stories again today, sent me another super long sms,until reach the maximum can sms can hold,again-.-

hahah trading precious in return for a funny friend like llk?idk if it's worth it.i wouldn't even consider it a trade.he just left suddenly?and llk i knew him long ago just that we din talk and he always cnt rmb.

like how i cnt rmb leonard and i think he gets quite pissed about it?hahah everytime he waves at or talks to me and i cnt recognize who that is?shihang told me he's attached.0.o i thought he was okay but din rly expect him to have a girlf?hahah.he's nice lah.

din sleep during lecture today though i was tired,forced myself to focus.

bought merci chocolates for khor lam and looh.happy teachers' day to the teachers' at caraven:D

back to nanyang

woah today saw a lot of familiar faces? waved to a hell load of people hahah.

KYNA MY LIVEJOURNAL ISN'T ANGSTY.
hahah took loads of photos, on facebook.

baby bro i'm sorry it's not that i don't understand
i know you've got to study and mug for prelims and As,
but i hate it when you say i g2g then you just disappear in the twinkle of an eye
it's just gets on my nerves to know that the moment i don't pay attention to your convo cos i'm talking to others or doing my own stuff, then when I open it you're gone already.
it's like, one day you're going to just go off like that too?
to ns and your dream uni?
and studies are always number 1 on your list?
i know you make time to text me and pay attention to me
but it just sucks
i asked you to get lost
but it was in the context of asking you to go offline and study.
and you said i din understand? well, yes sometimes i admit i really don't understand why you keep mugging you're already smart just cos you din do well for one test doesn't mean you'll flunk the rest of your papers?
i'm sorry i know it was my fault this time.
saying get lost and being unreasonable.

BUT I REALLY AM ANNOYED ABOUT YOU LEAVING LIKE THAT *SNAPS FINGERS*

just that now i'm more UPSET that you're UPSET at me than being UPSET that you disappear abruptly all the time.
upsetx3.

why is upset spelled with an UP in it when you feel DOWN.

teachers day

i better not forget to bring the gifts tmr, large plastic bag full of it sia.

talking to llk now he is damn funny always got controversial topics to talk about, today is about the human anatomy, and it is good to actually converse about this kind of things and learning new stuff, non-horny bits but with explanation and jokes once in a while to like bowl over with laughter. HAHAH.

edmund is damn boring to talk to today. He ZERGING chem now, that's why.and today i don't rly miss him much?lala.

llk funny!

hmmm

hmmm suddenly he came and talked to me? I'm quite happy now, but cant say that i'm crazy about him like last time? yeah I used to stare at the screen and wait for him to reply, but now if he just reply hahah or smth then I close the convo window? and when i reply him i close the convo window after that?

hahah he suddenly lick me? I din lick him back, just asked why he suddenly lick me. okay there's a part of me that still likes him, after all it was a month of fun, and i cnt forget entirely the fun we had even though he wasn't with me physically.

and baby was saying he may get into a r/s after As? I just wish him all the best lah.

talking to hy and llk the whole day? after I woke up at 1130.yeah I missed math lecture and pe, but I was rly tired and not feeling well, staring at the screen to do wr rly does shit to your eyes. They still hurt.

argh I sprayed baygon on my table then everything is oily i had to clean everything argh all that stupid fly's fault.

hahah ytd i talked to baby till rly late, then i din wanna go off cos i said he's not gonna talk to me the next day since he keeps mugging. Then i said he send me one sms tmr morning, that's all, then we won't talk until after his exams.

then i was rly annoyed this morning when i saw 3 4 smses but none from him? Then at 2 plus he message me hey

WAH MY HEART SHATTERED.

then i was about to be nonchalent and reply ?
when my ph rang again.
he said hey afternoon i just woke up

-_____________________________________________-

OMG he is damn pig. instead of home study he's home sleepy. then work hard until late in the night, kill his body clock then his face more pimples then he whine.

really baby.

sigh.

/lick.

yes hongyee, i won't carelessly and recklessly fall in love again.
i promise you. just, give me a while to let everything completely die down.
you damn good bruddur, along w llk, who's hibernating now. LOLZ.

goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend

ah i was singing that when i saw kjl walk out of school hahaha.

talking to - now. I miss him a lot, not seeing him anymore and hardly getting to talk to him? he's telling me after as can talk as much, and i've got promos and pw too.

hongyee is sending me stupid youtube videos to watch.
highly entertaining.
i barack rolled him
thanks llk:D

will not kill for money- realized table has a few hundred bucks here and there. must be pocket money placed there and I din bother taking. They're now buried somewhere among my papers. I still do not bother.

will kill for time to sleep- chionged the whole wr with 3 hours of sleep everyday. I thank god for llk to keep me company sharinganing away his ki research paper while I sharingan this report.

note to self: sharinged the wr already, will still sulk till not sulky.

will make someone watch the thai horror movie w me- no one wants to watch the movie with me cos they're too hum to do so.

note to self (again): will find someone who is not hum.

will do anything to see seniors back in college again- today day 1 and I miss hy llk they all liao.

I thank god for letting anan spot my precious eyecandilicious while I quote her "you were busy nibbling your harchiongai of course never notice lah"

yes it was indeed amazing to see him since the paper finished at about 11 in the morning while he was there at 1 plus.

I thank god for friends.

happy birthday anan.

I am upset at tanking the wr, so much for compiling everything. Everything has been compiled yes, but in terrible state. Idiots are annoying me, and saying they need their sleep. Who'd you think has been running on 3 hours of sleep a day chionging all 55 pages. Can't you all make an effort to do the wr as well. No, don't even do it, you don't even bother reading it. then make us two tank everything? that's why it's called project work. a few people do everyone get the same marks? no wonder precious was rly angry and worried for me? Don't think he cares anymore though. my pw mate swore at me, and I so don't deserve it. I'm damn irritated. She's been sleeping at midnight and ponning school, while we tank the wr? You whatever me when I ask you to be more considerate. he's busy with stuff so he passed me the compiling, and when I email you you not only don't bother to check you swear at me?

I rly wna call hongyee and cry now, but he's asleep.

talking to jh now. they've got another ki paper tmr. jiayou llk, jh.

jiayous!

jiayou to all taking gp prelims tmr!<3
melmel
hongyee
tianying
chunchun
joel
wee
daniel
possibly eye candy aka KJL:D
baby

eh shit i realized the names on top all guys one!
jiayou
pearlyn
diane
olivia
the genie name senior from senior class whose name I have difficulty committing to memory

KI FTW!
GO llk!
GO jh!

I will not cry when I see you walk away tomorrow.

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling
gotta make you understand
never gonna give you up
never gonna let you down
never gonna run around and desert you
never gonna make you cry
never gonna say goodbye
never gonna tell a lie and hurt you.
sigh rick (astley) I love you too.

it's 236 in the morning and I HAVE FINISHED MY MATH TUTORIAL
read through econs lecture notes in advance
then do alkenes tutorial (at least 3 long questions before traciekoh whops my pretty ass)

let's see.

I HAVE SHARINGANED HALF THE WR.
I HAVE COMPLETED MATH TUTORIAL
yes repeating my successes makes me feel happy.

I highly doubt I can sleep tonight.

yangsheng and I are talking now, he just finished brushing his teeth and he's off to bed.Why do I feel this tinge of jealousy.

hey julie look what they're doing to me):
i'd never make it through without you around.

sigh. precious. sometimes you're still on my mind.

voice of happiness!

hahahah i'm a little crazy over voh thanks to llk now hahahah.

wahlao i don't even know why they mean to chen but he sounds like a really weird freak.

talking to llk now and doing report? we're both sharinganing! it's a word he came up with after we talked about naruto last night hahahah. He was like, argh doing ki until my eyes bleeding sia, I am SHARINGANING. and now I have to compile the wr, bits and pieces of it, but it's like omgosh freakishly badly done, the language word count and everything, the points don't even flow well, no relation to the before and after subsections. I got so annoyed I started doing it at 12 after I got home and showered? Then now it's 250am and I'm still doing it. Lucky got llk SHARINGANING with me if not i die liaoz.

got 55 pages now i edit until 54 pages, at page 9 zomg.

now I just call baby bruddur when I text him. ahhahah baby is his codename from now on cos he really is a baby! He's always whiney and wakes up late then needs to find his maid for lunch then he always complain and moan about how inefficient his studying is. he's damn kawaii lah. I feel super sad that he din talk to me until I lent him the gp stuff, like when he needs me then he finds me? But he's telling me everyone is ignoring everybody else now cos it's As, after exam will be back to normal. Sigh, but in his context, how normal is normal?

Recently I've decided not to be too close to baby? Don't wanna cry when he's gone. Actually he is, I think the last time I'll see him is on monday after his paper if we go catch a movie?

jh: hey how is ';' used? me: Kagami is hot - and she is intelligent. Kagami is hot; she makes me horny. "・m・・・ﾈ・｢・・・・! ><#" says:
meh
nylette; ~sharinganing pw~ unless you're worth my time, get lost=) says:
moo

hahah everytime llk mehs i just moo back. damn funny.

baby has no time for me.oh well.I mean, bruddur no time for me sia.

called hongyee before I went into the arcade for some warmth today, damn cold weather cos raining plus plaza sing aircon fantabulous PLUS I wasn't wearing exactly what baby would approve of. BUT HEY it was just a short sleeve hoodie and shorts. except it was quite low cut and very short shorts?:/

I went swensons for lunch, and this waiter was really sweet i was served very promptky and efficiently, then another waiter came to hit on me? He asked me why I'm alone, then I said I was waiting for a friend (NIKKYLOVE YOU MADE ME WAIT FOR YOU AT LEAST 2 HOURS?) then he asked me if he could ask me for a date as well? hahah. Then he saw me studying and asked me if the table was rickety; it was, but I push it down on my side so it doesn't rock that much, but he went to rock the table and came back with a whole load of napkins and wanted to stabilize the table? haha. then he cleared the tables around me when the customers were done then smiled at me when I saw him, he's quite nice lah:D

I went to arcade watched 2x ahbengs tekkening away, this guy kept looking at me, he's quite cute. Finally nikky came, I asked him if my face got anything but he say it was okay, so idk why he kept staring. But he looked kinda familiar leh. I think cos every week I go see the tekken6 then all the same ahbengs hang out I find some of them quite familiar liao=) Like the [+force]ROBOTCOP player who had 14 consecutive wins!freaking imba:D his friend also, use lili but no card so he normal play also quite pro. Another one [+force]PRINCEss_K also amazing!:D used asuka.

hahah then jon came to join us for dinner? Then I bluetooth my photo to his and nikky's ph and now my face is their wallpaper, but jon reset his wallpaper.RAH. He says my photo is still in his ph though. whatever lorrrrrr. Nikky says I look very schoolgirl-ish like asuka kind. ZZZ.

Then, when I went for tuition dam funny. Nikky and I fell asleep?Then I woke up, woke him up and found yangsheng with his eyes closed, but he said he wasn't sleeping hahah. Jamie came for make up but an hour plus late. Before that esther and i went to the toilet, then the stupid chair, suddenly got 1 extra one there then my legs too fat I was struggling to get out of class (k lah not so kuazhang budden my legs are really fat lor, and really narrow walkthrough even esther also go prob), then esther and I were talking about the horror movie cos I asked her to watch w me, then the toilet suddenly flush and when walking out I slipped and grabbed her and screamed! She scream lah wahlao make me scream somemore we were dam freaked out can. We practically ran back to class. Orchard plaza, after all, isn't really what people define as safe.

nikky: eh you know when you left the guys there were checking you out?
me: *blabs about the toilet story and screaming*
nikky: huh wth scare yourself so stupid.
me: ya okay what guys. where got cute guys?
nikky: no, those guys in the corner, just now when you walking out I heard them say eh see that girl there. look look then he call his friends look.
me: what the hell? *packs stuff*
nikky: ya when you came back he ask his friends see again then they all smiling but when you coming back they all shhh shhh stop talking liao.
me: so st pats like.
nikky: huh they were from st pats?
me: no st pats opposite vj, they're like the boys there/
esther: huh huh what checking out?
nikky: *repeats story*
me: *cuts in* aiya don't care lah stupid people one. just ignore.
nikky: *continues story*

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ some people really lame.havent finished work still see see look look play play stone.

harvesting season

ahhhh harvesting season is coming in about a month!
I havent even planted any mugger seeds yet:/

talking to timo now, just linked him today, his Ns coming, hiany's bdae and Os coming. Whoo cant wait to go out with them after my promos~
then will be surrounded by timo's smoky aura and hiany's vulgarities at the void deck again hahah.
then can bully wencong again!
ahh but in the end i'll be the one who will kena bully again. T.T
wanna go timo's house to swimm.
nvm hiadi okai liao.

today woke up chao late, 7:21, then llk niao me hahah.
I thought i was late, wait till I was walking towards canteen saw him, just passed him the magazine, he just take then we walked our separate ways?
saw him again. he's so untidy after pe sweaty and dirty):
cihui and anan say he looks malnutritioned ahhahahah.

talked to him yesterday night,
I've gotten over the whole saga, just keeping minimum contact now, as acquaintances.
the pages, I've turned them, with my very own hands.

and I think, I shall watch the horror movie myself.my bestf dare not watch.
I shall not deny I am pissed.

inspiration

I shall blog for a while, need inspiration and fingers dancing across the keyboard will help, I think. I was looking forward to passing edmund the bp mag at t block tmr cos I don't wanna pass it to him in the canteen but sigh now that hoe's changed the venue I guess I have to pass it to him IF I see him in the canteen.

blog hopping facebooking friendstering ya think I so free still doing this kind of thing still wanna get As lol. looking at pretty girls, lol sound like les.

ahhahah I&R and my part for pw's done and emailed to the rest alr, I'm quite proud of myself for this part of today, but other than that I prolly whiled (got such word anot har) the time away. sick of my playlist but i've got nothing else to listen to. Ipod's with mark. SHICKS):

Also good lah if sian of the music then won't think so much of him. Actually now also not really thinking much liao, just going take things as they come.

I miss primary school, when I topped everything, sigh suddenly feel like playing neopets, old 2d games and happiness assured. There was no love life to talk about, no grades to fuss over, considering how I aced everything it was a darn easy breeze. If you thought PSLE was hard shick for you wait till you take the As. Hahah.

Edmund and I rly aren't talking. He'll prolly only text me to say thank you when I pass him the mag later in the morning? (yes it's past midnigh another new day has come)

hahah I got shuj's boyf wrong! Turns out he's not the fat one! hahaha. wrong guy! I'm sorry girl! Ah. I miss having a loved one by my side too.

Sometimes I think if I study with someone I really love I'd be more focused and productive in my work? But I rmb studying with him and ohboy -.- We were slacking the entire time? Hahah.

Sigh alex isn't online if not I'll go bother him. The lazy pig's prolly asleep? If not messing w his xbox? He's super mean, refuses to let me play his ninja gaiden cos he says it's too violent for me and i'll shriek. haha. More like he shrieks lor he was whining when my foot was on his pillow. Ah but his bed is dam nice. *bounce* Just lie on it in front of you is the xbox on your right is the comp and on your left is the wall-.- and the window is super dusty *sneezes* hahah hmm I went to his house only once and I rmb loads, maybe cos his house rly fun!:D I rmb walking there and he jon and nick screamed at me when I was walking along the road from his house?Hahah. He's a super nice tickle buddy lah:D

AH. now's friday. gna watch the horror movie on saturday, but i'm scared i'll chicken out. See first lah.nikkylove says he's not going to the arcade this week, but yeah right we'll see okay! He's some arcade addict every week must go there for an hour or so? Then i'll be standing behind with the ahbengs while he's playing? I took a few photos last week and I realize one of the cute guys i saw, the one who stepped on my shoe, has nice hair hahah. And he's rly imba at tekken6 too!:D ah. I like drinking bandung and watching nikkylove play. It's much more fun that way.

yep yep inspiration to write coming...

hahah. I BIT MARK YESTERDAY. I cant rmb if i blogged about it, but anyway, i bit him cos he pissed me off hahah. I think both of us were rather pissed yesterday, with 3 comps on and the lights and only 1 ceiling fan? Then I was bored then I headbutted him and he was like OUUUUCH PAIN LAH then he dodged once so I got annoyed and headbutted him REALLY hard the next time hahah. Then a while later dno what happened h was making weird tsking noises then I couldn't concentrate on studying so I bit him haha.

I have bad habitttttttts. I should refrain from cannibalism.

Sometimes I think I do all these stuff just to get my mind off OTHER stuff.

oh think twice
it's another day for you and me in paradise
oh think twice
it's another day for you and me in paradise

I rmb listening to this song for hours for 5 days when you left me.
you were the first person I truly loved and you left me.
although I was young and stupid and ha maple was the SHIT MAN!
and we were rly close even before we met
No one has really shown me the care, love and concern you've showered upon me.
Maybe it's because I daren't really love again
Maybe it's because I don't want to be the one hurt this time
Maybe it's because I've learnt to become irresponsible in life.

if so
then it's time to change.

dear -
you asked me to treat you anyway I wanted, friend or more.
but have you asked yourself what have you treated me as? friend or less?
the past few days talking to you, in fact, the entire time talking to you, (okai to be fair, MOST OF THE TIME) it was always about you, and I don't mind because I don't want to act irresponsibly or be insensitive towards others. It's time I made an effort to change and it's starting with you. I know you're the kind who needs more love showered on you than you showering care on others. And being the nice friend I am, I will do just that, but just remember. No one can walk your entire life with you. Learn to let go, and you will learn to love.

Today alby and I crapped hahah it cheered me up a little cos llk had to go off to sleep after pranking czy. hahah.

Sometimes I still check to see if he's online, and when I talked to claire about it she's wondering what's going on with the 3 of us. He's somewhere I'm here he's there.So close and yet so far. Clairey bear thanks for being here for me tonight, cos I've been talking so much about him that no one really bothers anymore, and it helps when I finally tell someone who listens about him one last time, before I turn the pages and end this fairytale I never wanted out.

just asked him if he was less stressed.
last chance before I'm outta the tale.

seh

ah bought anan's birthday present today, cost us about 40 bucks excluding the cake?
then oh man
i bought flats, 55.90 sigh i have big feet):
liquour chocs 27.95
some what can you do to make me happy booklet 9.90
ARGH just a day out excluding FOOD and it's cost me like, almost 100 bucks?
i rly rly need to save before my credit card bill explodes. SHEESH.

lalala.
ignoring edmund.
ignoring hongyee, a little.
ignoring pretty much everyone cos I'm not in a very good mood.
felt dizzy and wanted to vomit while out today? still had to take bus and walk home from st pats.
some guy (quite good looking hahah except look a little like drug addict cos eye small small face haggard and super thin) kept looking at me, I think cos my shoelace damn crap. Left foot black horizontals and right foot white knits. hmmmm.

need.someone.back.in.my.life.

seh,likai online.:D
I&R report ftw!

keep moving forward
don't look back.

focus

I'm not over this, not yet.
but studies will be on the top of my list from now on.

because these are my incentives:
1: llk promised me a bomb if I get 6As for promos, (that's including pw, and i know results will be out late so we'll have a little discussion about it)
2: I don't want to treat llk to winter equinox
3: need to go out w hy and llk to chocolate buffet at one fullerton
4: I still want to watch the stars with you
5: google only employs top students of their faculties.

so there.
self motivation issues.

welcome home jon, I hope you had a fantabulous time in Cambridge but now that you're back we're going to watch some horro thai movie tgt (oh yayness you're the only person I know aside edmund who dares to watch it)

haha he was home about like, 6 plus?:/ then i thought it was early morning. aiyaa he should have used 24 hour clock to relate time to me lor!

OMG THE UNIVERSITY OF LINCOLN GUY REPLIED OMGOMG PWPEOPLE REJOICE! says:
you never call me say you come back liao)=

Jon Hey ppl, I'm coiming back to school on wed Maybe away? Try your luck. I think my brain is fried le says:
oh sorry

Jon Hey ppl, I'm coiming back to school on wed Maybe away? Try your luck. I think my brain is fried le says:
i was dead tired frm the flight

Jon Hey ppl, I'm coiming back to school on wed Maybe away? Try your luck. I think my brain is fried le says:
sorry la

hahah he's damn funny always apologise de.


sigh, I did the I&R report, until 5am last night? llk was helping me with it though he had KI research to read up on. Thanks llk<3 you've been there for me ever since he went away and always telling me lame and funny stuff (esp horny stuff) to cheer me up!
At like 3 plus am we suddenly decided to compare our typing speed? And he won me hands down lah. hahah I was still saying I can type faster somemore. malu-ness ftw!

oh yeah need to add weeho to msn. hahah waittttttttt.

okay done:D

ahhahahha.I think I was texting edmund from 11 plus all the way until 4 plus am? He was still awake cos he pon school today. hmmmm. I woke up at about 8 plus too, cos slept at 5am doing the damn report. (and still NOT done with it, only to find that the whole class only got like 4 ppl who did it ARGH) Edmund always sleeps earlier than me but wakes up later than me. Rah it's like jon always pangsehing me last time cos he sleeps at like, 11, unless when we watch like some horror freaky reality show like A HAUNTING on discovery channel on weekend nights then he'll watch with me and sleep at 1230. hahah.

Today asked the cedarians for their opinion on what's been going on with precious and I, and I haven't really got a consolidated response from them yet, so going to ask them again tmr, and see what happens. But the general consensus was that this is the time of COOLING, lol, which means that we've been hanging out too much and it's cooling off period so he's not talking to me?:/ and that flirting is a qualitative and not quantitative activity. hahaha cihui was laughing like mad at that.

I just miss him so, but llk says that if I drown myself in work then i wouldn't think too much about him, which is really true! Cos i'm tied up with a lot of stuff now, and I really need to do revision.

I was telling llk how I din have anymore incentive to study since I wanted to do well and show him that could get 6As, and then we could just watch the stars with sand in our hair and saltwater splashing at our feet, so he said that I'd better get 6As or i'll have to treat him winter equinox, and he'll get me a bomb as well. hahah i guess it's incentive enough:D

I'm starting to miss him again. ARGH okay stop lynette stopstopstop. hahah jon just asked me what horror movie? I'm sooooooo going to kill him. Hahah okay nvm he rmb liao=)

Life is like a hole in a sampan.
If you sit on your life, water is still going to flow in and worse, you'll wet your pants sitting on it.
But if you try to scoop the water out, the water still keeps flowing in.
The water can represent memories or bad experiences. The kind that's cold and makes you revitalized when your feet are in contact with it but you're desperately trying to throw everything out before it overwhelms you.
Either way, you're going to drown, regardless of whether you sit or scoop. Scooping just keeps you alive longer.
So scoop people, scoop.
(on a side note, I think i'm dying for ice cream hahah)

sigh I just miss him again. I'll get over this nonsense.

happy birthday hongyee you're one of my best bruddurs over the 17 plus years of my life, I hope you've had a great birthday especially with the Rick Astley CD someone gave you, thanks for stealing my precious love HUH!! But oh well since it's your birthday I guess I COULD share him with you for a little while:/ anyway I hope you like my gift it looks &$*#($*#) compared to the rest): rawr. i got out of my mum's car carrying my laptop bag and your gift and when I walked past LT1 I saw pongs yong and YAY YOU! So i faster give you your gift a big hug and I'm one bag free-er! HAHAHAH, happy birthday hongyee i love you!:D

happy 100 days knowing you edmund. I love you.

argh

today i was talking to hy about him and i cried.and the previous night i just told edmund that i'm not going to cry over any guy anymore.I bresak my promises rly fast.I still dno what's going on and why he's been ignoring me but I'm not going ot bother to find out why.After all. he's halfway round the world and there's nothing I can do about it.If he wants to talk to me then alright then,if he doesn't then i also cannot do anything liao.I'll have this concept in my head but when i wake up, stone or just listen to music I send him I cannot help but cry or be rly upset.

I know it'll all get better in time but I just cant wait for that time to come.

I&R due, chem test tmr, not done studying, not prepared to fail cos I've been revising a little here and there.

I promised him 6As for promos and although now i'm not doing it for him anymore, I need self motivation and someone to keep me going and pick me up when I fall.

i still miss you, yes i do.

i've finally accepted the fact that precious and i are not going to talk anymore
and even if we do it's going to be rly bad atmosphere kind, like cold and full of lol
i'd love to have him back but i think he's found someone to love and care for maybe that's why he's ignoring me? I don't know, but no matter how hard I try to not think about him and why he's like that to me, i'm still hoping one day he'll revert back to his old self and tell me he's always there to love and care for me.

sindor. now that you've walked away you've left a trail of emptiness in my heart.

beepbeep there goes my phone and once again i'm just hoping it's a text from you
it aint right read your messages twice thrice four times a night its true
every day i patiently wait feeling like a fool but i do anyway
nothing can feel as sweet and as real
as knowing i wasn't waiting in vain

baby you told me this was a chiongster clubbing song
and you know, it's one of my favourite songs,
and everytime i listen to it you're on my mind.
i really really miss you
but when it's time to let go.
i will.

maybe it's true i'm caught up on you
maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too
maybe i'm wrong it's all in my head
maybe we're afraid of words we both havent said

i really really miss you.

you were always the one who gave me a good night's sleep
but made me sleep in lectures and tutorials and breaks the next day

you were the one who always put a smile on my face
but made me so annoyed with your cuteness and flirting

you listened you loved you cared and you bothered
but whined about your camera like a spoilt kid and made me shower so much love on you

one day i'll get over all these
and lock them up in my heart as precious memories of you.

losing you

it hurt so much when i realized i lost you
though we only met twice in a foreign land
and talked to each other online for 2 months
but it was unforgettable
you're someone i never want to let go of
i don't know why you suddenly disappeared
maybe you're really tired of work
maybe you're really tired of me
but i set up this blog
because I miss you.

together forever and never to part
together forever we two
and don't you know i would move heaven and earth
to be together forever with you.

you loved this song that i sent you
i love it as much as you do too
if you still can remember it
i hope you remember it too.

because i want to be together forever with you.